Anonymously Spitting The Truth

Hey hey, I’m back again.  I was off sick, at home, which was nice for a change.  I wasn’t THAT sick that I couldn’t enjoy being at home, still the doctor booked me off.  Great!!  I spent the time cleaning up the house, doing some laundry, reading a bit.  Some friends came over for coffee…  It was actually quite nice.  Funny if you think that I was actually off sick.

I managed to get the internet working at home (my new home), but I’m connecting through my mobile, so its a bit pricy, which is why I didn’t blog, even though I CRAVED it.

I have been struggling to get to work today.  *sigh*.  I am really unmotivated.  Specially coz I spent the past two days lazing about, and now its nearly weekend! 

I’ve been on facebook today, and its such a cool site.  I know the warning signs were all there, and I guess if you’re not careful people will find out awkward things about you, but I find it such a nifty tool to keep in touch with friends and family.  I’m constantly in contact with my two nephews who live in Texas, and its just so amazing.  Imagine a hundred years ago, this wasn’t even someone’s DREAM.  Back then merely creating a calculator would’ve been considered a miracle.

Okay, I guess my mind is wandering WAAAY too much.  Maybe its the antibiotics :P  I’ll use that as an excuse. 

Then just one last thing…  I absolutely LOVE married life still.  I know many of you will say that its still only a month and a bit, but I absolutely love it.  I love going home in the afternoons.  I love cooking for my husband.  Doing his laundry.  And falling asleep next to him.  Its simply fantastic.

One of my deep dark secrets is that I’m extremely passionate about stage life.  I wish I could be part of some drama or dancing act.  Not ballet - its too… stuck up?  Sorry, and no offense, but it just don’t enjoy it.  I enjoy watching it, but being a ballerina just seems awfully boring.

If I could have a choice it would be some kind of modern, freestyle, hip hop dance.  I love the adrenaline rush it brings.

I guess I’m a bit shy about it since people automatically assume that you like attention, and you love being in the spotlight, and that is bad in some way or another.  I don’t know.  I don’t agree.  I just love entertaining.  In our culture it is something that is OK for kids, but it is often suppressed in adults.  Its not the proper way to behave I guess.

Now here I am, in front of my computer screen, sometimes boring myself to death.  I guess that’s one reason why I absolutely ADORE blogging.  I love having an audience.  Its too exhilarating for words. I wish I had the guts, and the talent to just put it all out there and not care.  I wish I could, but maybe one day…. maybe one day I will…..

I am sooo lazy in winter times - or whenever its cold for that matter.  I haven’t gone to the gym at all this week, and though I like going to the gym, I just can’t get up early enough in the mornings to pack my gym bag.  I’m gonna try to pack it in the evenings now.

But I could very easily just sit here, listen to my music, and sip a cup of hot chocolate… Mmm…. The air outside is a little bit below crisp, but its so nice.  I never thought I’d like winter this much.  And though I don’t enjoy being cold, there is something so magical about the cold. 

I’ve been CRAVING to dance for a while now.  I can even just dance at home, I don’t mind, I just NEED to dance.  Its strange.  I had dancing lessons when I was still at school - I guess I danced for most of my school career, and I loved it.  We even had semi professional concerts at a theatre.  It was really amazing, specially as a little girl.  It was addictive, the stage life…  I did tap dancing, and modern dancing.  These days I’ve been craving crazy club dancing, nothing more. 

I heard that there’s someone close to our house who gives ballroom dancing lessons, and I’m seriously considering that.  It sounds like fun.  Not to do it professionally, or anything like that, just for fun.  I absolutely LOVE dancing….

YaY - its Friday!!  I can’t believe we have another weekend, but I’m really thankful.  I’ve got a lot of things planned for this weekend.  I want to go do some winter shopping.  My wardrobe is a bit understocked, so I hope I find something nice.  Other than that there is a ton of work to be done in the house.  Well not really, but it can defintely keep me busy the whole of Saturday, but we’ll see how it all goes.  We have some friends we have to see to.  Damn, I wish we could just get a maid - it would be a lot easier, but I guess for the time being, I’ll just have to enjoy the life as a housewife & working woman. 

Hope you all have a terrific weekend!!!

On a traffic light yellow means yield, and green means go.

On a banana, it’s just the opposite, yellow means go ahead, green means stop, and red means…, where the hell did you get that banana?

I’m sipping on a cup of hot coffee, waiting for a poker tournament to start. This has been the start to most of my mornings. As you may or may not know, I’m a game tester, hence I’m playing poker for a living. Not exactly. Or rather, that is not ALL that I do.

Winter is starting to slowly creep in, specially in the mornings. The problem is that it still gets quite hot during the day, so deciding what to wear is a mission everyday. As much as I love the feel of the cold air against my skin, and as much as I love dressing up all snuggly, I do still miss the summer. I miss being able to wear only a spagetti strap top and a skirt to the office, and not worry about what the weather is going to do. This cold weather reminds me of the year I spent living in the UK. I spent about 30minutes getting dressed each day - and that was AFTER I had decided what to wear.

I get cold so easily, you would probably laugh if you knew how many layers of clothes I wear in winter. Today isn’t so bad though, but then again, its only autumn.

I miss the times which I spent in the 2 degrees celcius fridge like factory, wearing ridiculous looking hairnets, wellingtons, and an overhaul. LOL. Thinking back on those memories, I can’t help but laugh. It was such fun times, but probably the worst job I’ve had in my life. Still I miss it. The friends I made there are incredible - some of them even attended our wedding, and they’re very dear to me.

Its amazing how we get connected with people. Its really something that cannot be explained. There are some people with whom you just ‘click’. For sure there are certain areas in which you must be compatable, but the way we meet our friends just astonishes me still.

Damn, I think this post is probably one of the most random ones I’ve done in a long time. Sorry, but my concentration span is pretty bad, since I haven’t had a decent night’s sleep in a while. Plus, if you were with me in England, you might have understood that its not so random at all. Each winter in SA makes me long for the long lost memories of the UK. The sound of the train, the smell of the horrible factory. The friends, and the good times in the English pubs. Its something that comes back to me each time the sky turns grey, and the temperatures drop.

I guess its not something I can get back though. Its not asif I can go back to England, and relive those times. Those friends are all back in SA too, minding their own business, working, trying to make a living. Yes we still see each other, but the careless days of factory work and pub crawling are over. I suppose its a good thing. I’m happily married now, and my life is everything that I could wish for. Still I will cherish those memories forever, and hopefully I can one day tell my children, and my grandchildren about it.

I find it incredibly strange that I have met a friend on the internet from Texas, quite a while back already, and that now my sister moved there with her family.  Life is just weird that way.   Imagine, they might even be neighbours and not know it!  Haha… 

I wish I could go visit them in the US, but hey, I can’t get a second bond on my home for that - not now

Plane tickets are incredibly expensive from SA to US - round about R15 000 - translating into about $2000….

*sigh*

I have added my wedding photo’s to an online album, so you can go and view them anytime you want.

When I reviewed the previous post, I realized that I forgot all about the blog title.  I really need to LEARN to relax.  Ok, so I’m taking deep breaths, and trying to cool off.  I won’t fill anything into the book section, just make a short comment.  I can’t be the only one who doesn’t read work related books in their free time after all.

For now I have to really spend some time OFF the net, and get together that document, plus another project which is due today. 

I hope you’re all doing OK, and thank you so much for visiting my blog.  Thanks Tom for the kind comments, and I hope you have a very happy birthday!!! 

Morning on this beautiful Monday.  My eyes are a bit bloodshot, but I’m still kicking.  I spent 18 hours on the road this past weekend, so I am a bit edgy and maybe even irritated.  We had to drive to the other end of the world for a wedding this past weekend, and though the wedding was nice, I’d really prefer if we didn’t have to DRIVE there - all in just one weekend

Other than that I’m ecstatic - no really.  I can’t wait to get home, do my washing, and clean up the house.  No sarcasm there, promise.  I wish I could just be a housewife, and bring up kids.  Suppose life doesn’t always work out the way we want it, or at the exact time that we want it

Today I actually have quite a bit of work, but I’m struggling with it.  The one is a personal assessment which I’m suppose to complete today, but I hardly know what to fill out.  What they basically require is for each person to spend their personal time to read books which are work related.  How insane is that?  There’s absolutely no way that I’m doing that - I’m not a work-aholic thank you very much!! 

I feels its rather arrogant for them to expect something like that!!  Can you imagine?  Maybe if I could do it in work time, or if I had an agreement to study while working for them, but nothing of the sort!!! They believe its for my own benefit, which is a good enough reason for me to offer up my social life, and maybe even my married life, and all housekeeping.  WTF?!?!?  I might consider it if they paid for a domestic working - lol, but since they don’t, I won’t be reading any work books OR magazines while I’m home.  I’ll be relaxing, and spending time with my husband.  Which is what I am SUPPOSE to do anyway.

You know the Mika song? I just couldn’t resist. Incase you haven’t heard it, check it out…

Mika - Relax, Take It Easy

It was my theme before the wedding, when the stress got to me a bit too much. Now I still love it as a theme whenever I worry about things too much. Its a great song!