Wednesday, 30 April 2008

Does This Explain Me?

I've never been keen on believing web quiz results, but maybe this one answers my questions of before?

You Are 50% Extrovert, 50% Introvert
You're a bit outgoing, a bit reserved
Like most people, you enjoy being social
But you also value the time you have alone
You have struck a good balance!
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Introvert vs. Extrovert

I've long since had the struggle within myself about being extroverted or introverted.  While I was at school I was the quiet, boring and not really featured girl.  I guess I had my moments of loudness amongst my friends, but I was never a public speaker type person.  I hardly ever landed in the spotlight, and the only time when I did, I was dancing, and usually in a group, so this was different.  I wasn’t exposing ME as such, as dancing doesn't expose me as a person.

I don't know if I like being exposed as a person.  Sometimes I think I do, I like discussing what I believe, what I like, and I love blogging.  Randomly discussing topics which interest me.  But there are areas of me which I would rather not discuss.  LOL.  No offense intended, but with certain things I become extremely private.  You may find it strange that its not with things such as sex or the usual.  Instead its more the kind of things about me which I do not like.  My weak points.  I don't think anyone likes these to be exposed, but I think I might be a bit abnormal.

Now to get back to being extro / introverted...  Sometimes I feel like I need to be the loud mouth spotlight type person which I can only truly be in my imagination, and with my husband.  But when I end up in a group of strangers I am the most uncomfortable person I have ever seen.  I get nervous.  My palms go sweaty.  I go very quiet, and when I do say something I usually stutter or mix up my words.

Its for this reason why I love blogging.  I can't stutter if I get nervous, and though I'm quite comfortable now, I still struggle to find the right words at times.  Here I can "backspace" and correct myself before (or after) posting.

Still I'm struggling to know who I am really suppose to be.  Are we ever "Supposed" to be anything, or is it just what we make of it, and what we make of ourselves?

Ugh, I don't like being philosophical, but I guess we all get moods like this....Don’t we?

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Wednesday, 23 April 2008

That Time Of The Year

Wow, winter has suddenly come over our country, and I've been dressing as if I'm heading to the South Pole!!!  Ugh, it takes some getting used to - this winter weather!!

I'm wearing layers and layers of clothes, coz its like 6 degrees (Celcius) in the mornings, but during the day it warms up a bit at least.  I don't mind the cold as such, as its very cozy, but getting up at 5am when its still dark, and freezing cold is not fun!! 

Each morning my alarm goes off at 5am, I then lean out of bed to switch on the heater, and then sleep a bit more till the room is warmed up.

I can't believe how time flies.  I've been meaning to blog the whole week, but things just come up, and since I don't have internet at home anymore it makes it so much harder!! 

I've had so many things come up to blog about, but it just escapes when I sit here...

Oh well, hope you all have a great week, and that summer is really starting for those of you who are in the Northern hemisphere!!

Cheers!

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Friday, 18 April 2008

Names & Indimidation....

Gosh, when I visit other blogs I always wonder how on earth people become, or just ARE, so very creative. With the naming of their blogs, the themes, their content. Sometimes I feel that I lack so much. LOL.

Every time I've started a new blog, it took me forever to think of a name, and even once I chose it, it still sounded dumb. Still sounds dumb now. Which makes me think about something else.... Naming children. I wonder if you ever regret naming your kids whatever you name them. I know that sounds a bit mixed up, but I'm sure you get it. Anyway, I don't have a CLUE what I would name my kids one day. But its still a while before we start with that, so I'll just wait till then...

Damn I moan a lot, dont I? I heard yesterday that aparantly people are scared of me... WTF? I'm rather harmless considering that I don't have much muscle, and I don't keep any weapons with me ... Permanently in any case... But aparantly people are scared of me, in the way that they won't just drop in for coffee and a quick chat as they think that they might upset me... Now I'm wondering what I did to give them this impression.

Yes, I do have my own way of doing things, and most of the time I'm pretty adament about it, but I'm not so bad that people should be scared of me, or am I? Does being a perfectionist make me THAT intimidating?
Mmm... I need to work on that, and improve a bit. Maybe invite some friends over for a social, and then they might relax a bit. Damn, I never want to scare people... rofl, except maybe kids, if I was a school teacher... Tongue out

What impression do you get from me. I know the web isn't a very accurate portrayal of one's personality, and perhaps you might be too scared of me to be honest - lol. But for what its worth, give it a shot?



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Thursday, 17 April 2008

Dudes & Dudettes

Hey hey, I'm back again.  I was off sick, at home, which was nice for a change.  I wasn't THAT sick that I couldn't enjoy being at home, still the doctor booked me off.  Great!!  I spent the time cleaning up the house, doing some laundry, reading a bit.  Some friends came over for coffee...  It was actually quite nice.  Funny if you think that I was actually off sick.

I managed to get the internet working at home (my new home), but I'm connecting through my mobile, so its a bit pricy, which is why I didn't blog, even though I CRAVED it.

I have been struggling to get to work today.  *sigh*.  I am really unmotivated.  Specially coz I spent the past two days lazing about, and now its nearly weekend! 

I've been on facebook today, and its such a cool site.  I know the warning signs were all there, and I guess if you're not careful people will find out awkward things about you, but I find it such a nifty tool to keep in touch with friends and family.  I'm constantly in contact with my two nephews who live in Texas, and its just so amazing.  Imagine a hundred years ago, this wasn't even someone's DREAM.  Back then merely creating a calculator would've been considered a miracle.

Okay, I guess my mind is wandering WAAAY too much.  Maybe its the antibiotics :P  I'll use that as an excuse. 

Then just one last thing...  I absolutely LOVE married life still.  I know many of you will say that its still only a month and a bit, but I absolutely love it.  I love going home in the afternoons.  I love cooking for my husband.  Doing his laundry.  And falling asleep next to him.  Its simply fantastic.



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Monday, 14 April 2008

Deep Dark Secret #1

One of my deep dark secrets is that I'm extremely passionate about stage life.  I wish I could be part of some drama or dancing act.  Not ballet - its too... stuck up?  Sorry, and no offense, but it just don't enjoy it.  I enjoy watching it, but being a ballerina just seems awfully boring.

If I could have a choice it would be some kind of modern, freestyle, hip hop dance.  I love the adrenaline rush it brings.

I guess I'm a bit shy about it since people automatically assume that you like attention, and you love being in the spotlight, and that is bad in some way or another.  I don't know.  I don't agree.  I just love entertaining.  In our culture it is something that is OK for kids, but it is often suppressed in adults.  Its not the proper way to behave I guess.

Now here I am, in front of my computer screen, sometimes boring myself to death.  I guess that's one reason why I absolutely ADORE blogging.  I love having an audience.  Its too exhilarating for words. I wish I had the guts, and the talent to just put it all out there and not care.  I wish I could, but maybe one day.... maybe one day I will.....

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Friday, 11 April 2008

Would You Like To Dance?

I am sooo lazy in winter times - or whenever its cold for that matter.  I haven't gone to the gym at all this week, and though I like going to the gym, I just can't get up early enough in the mornings to pack my gym bag.  I'm gonna try to pack it in the evenings now.

But I could very easily just sit here, listen to my music, and sip a cup of hot chocolate... Mmm.... The air outside is a little bit below crisp, but its so nice.  I never thought I'd like winter this much.  And though I don't enjoy being cold, there is something so magical about the cold. 

I've been CRAVING to dance for a while now.  I can even just dance at home, I don't mind, I just NEED to dance.  Its strange.  I had dancing lessons when I was still at school - I guess I danced for most of my school career, and I loved it.  We even had semi professional concerts at a theatre.  It was really amazing, specially as a little girl.  It was addictive, the stage life...  I did tap dancing, and modern dancing.  These days I've been craving crazy club dancing, nothing more. 

I heard that there's someone close to our house who gives ballroom dancing lessons, and I'm seriously considering that.  It sounds like fun.  Not to do it professionally, or anything like that, just for fun.  I absolutely LOVE dancing....

YaY - its Friday!!  I can't believe we have another weekend, but I'm really thankful.  I've got a lot of things planned for this weekend.  I want to go do some winter shopping.  My wardrobe is a bit understocked, so I hope I find something nice.  Other than that there is a ton of work to be done in the house.  Well not really, but it can defintely keep me busy the whole of Saturday, but we'll see how it all goes.  We have some friends we have to see to.  Damn, I wish we could just get a maid - it would be a lot easier, but I guess for the time being, I'll just have to enjoy the life as a housewife & working woman. 

Hope you all have a terrific weekend!!! Tongue out
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Thursday, 10 April 2008

Bananas vs. Traffic Lights

On a traffic light yellow means yield, and green means go.

On a banana, it's just the opposite, yellow means go ahead, green means stop, and red means..., where the hell did you get that banana?
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Wednesday, 09 April 2008

Reminiscing And Talking Nonsense

I'm sipping on a cup of hot coffee, waiting for a poker tournament to start. This has been the start to most of my mornings. As you may or may not know, I'm a game tester, hence I'm playing poker for a living. Not exactly. Or rather, that is not ALL that I do.

Winter is starting to slowly creep in, specially in the mornings. The problem is that it still gets quite hot during the day, so deciding what to wear is a mission everyday. As much as I love the feel of the cold air against my skin, and as much as I love dressing up all snuggly, I do still miss the summer. I miss being able to wear only a spagetti strap top and a skirt to the office, and not worry about what the weather is going to do. This cold weather reminds me of the year I spent living in the UK. I spent about 30minutes getting dressed each day - and that was AFTER I had decided what to wear.

I get cold so easily, you would probably laugh if you knew how many layers of clothes I wear in winter. Today isn't so bad though, but then again, its only autumn.

I miss the times which I spent in the 2 degrees celcius fridge like factory, wearing ridiculous looking hairnets, wellingtons, and an overhaul. LOL. Thinking back on those memories, I can't help but laugh. It was such fun times, but probably the worst job I've had in my life. Still I miss it. The friends I made there are incredible - some of them even attended our wedding, and they're very dear to me.

Its amazing how we get connected with people. Its really something that cannot be explained. There are some people with whom you just 'click'. For sure there are certain areas in which you must be compatable, but the way we meet our friends just astonishes me still.

Damn, I think this post is probably one of the most random ones I've done in a long time. Sorry, but my concentration span is pretty bad, since I haven't had a decent night's sleep in a while. Plus, if you were with me in England, you might have understood that its not so random at all. Each winter in SA makes me long for the long lost memories of the UK. The sound of the train, the smell of the horrible factory. The friends, and the good times in the English pubs. Its something that comes back to me each time the sky turns grey, and the temperatures drop.

I guess its not something I can get back though. Its not asif I can go back to England, and relive those times. Those friends are all back in SA too, minding their own business, working, trying to make a living. Yes we still see each other, but the careless days of factory work and pub crawling are over. I suppose its a good thing. I'm happily married now, and my life is everything that I could wish for. Still I will cherish those memories forever, and hopefully I can one day tell my children, and my grandchildren about it.
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Tuesday, 08 April 2008

Funny Things

I find it incredibly strange that I have met a friend on the internet from Texas, quite a while back already, and that now my sister moved there with her family.  Life is just weird that way.   Imagine, they might even be neighbours and not know it!  Haha... 

I wish I could go visit them in the US, but hey, I can't get a second bond on my home for that - not now :P

Plane tickets are incredibly expensive from SA to US - round about R15 000 - translating into about $2000....

*sigh*
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